Toxicity

Good job, Bugs, for not being okay with toxic shit anymore. You always were too good for it, and I’m glad you’re realizing it now. I hope you start fighting for what’s right again. Sticking up for yourself when you’re being wronged. Walking away from toxic situations. It is okay to quit sometimes, and sometimes it’s the much better option. “Never quit.” Yeah, fuck you. Tell that to a woman who’s getting beaten by her husband. Fuck you and your “pull yourself up by your bootstraps” mentality. It’s old, it’s wrong, and most people are realizing that. Call it being a snowflake, or call it knowing your worth. We all know what it is. Fuck toxicity, fuck abuse, fuck neglect, and fuck shitty people.

It’s okay to be pissed. It’s okay to have resentment toward someone who hurt you. It’s okay to hate them. In fact, that’s better than immediately forgiving them and trying to excuse their toxic bullshit. That’s what victims do. And they’re justified to have a victim’s mentality, because that’s what they are. But I’d much rather be a victor. Don’t put up with bullshit, and don’t excuse it. People need to be called out on their shitty behavior.

I need to look into this “turn the other cheek’ thing. I just have never gotten a convincing answer on what it means. Is Jesus saying we should put up with aggression and abuse and let it happen again and again? Or is he saying to not fight back when you’re in front of people so the other person looks like the villain? I should read an article about this.

Old Bugs: Sits there and takes what’s coming to him.

New Bugs: Gets up and fights back

I’m getting to a point where I’m having a hard time faking it because I know I deserve more.

Quite honestly, I feel like I’m making amazing progress. I feel like I’m finally becoming the man I want to be. I’m not there yet, but I believe that if I keep fighting this way I’ll get there soon. There may be setbacks, but I’ll get over them. If when walking on the path of righteousness you come upon a wall that stretches as far as the eye can see, you have three choices. Turn back, get off the path and try to find the end of the wall, or climb over. The new me climbs over every time.